Very bad day. Went to bed at around 5:20am for various reasons. Mainly – couldn’t drift into deep sleep. Woke up at 11:10am. Felt tired throughout the day. Accomplished nothing. Did nothing except sat in front of the computer screen. Who am I kidding? This continues anyway. I feel like giving up on a lots of things now. Who cares? Why am I making myself miserable? And yes, I meditated 10 minutes just after waking up. No difference whatsoever. Mindlessness as usual.