Another mindless day with a short meditation at the beginning. Mindless meditation. Woke up at 12pm something, went to sleep around 4;30am, maybe later. All world is upside down for me. Still possessed by demon. Gluten-free diet my ass. I ate a few delicious loafs of bread. Also water challenge not going well, not to mention about exercise or any other so called meaningful productive activity.. The joy of life, huh? I feel its almost like too late to change. Maybe I just have to embrace my habits and the way I am. With all the garbage inside or outside. It also doesn’t sound that appealing to my intellectual side – that puffed-up wannabe super-successful well-balanced, always sharp, wise and peaceful ghost – who yearns for control but can’t have it. Acceptance is painful but so is change. What lot is mine?